I'm super duper tired today. Tried to be hyper to prepare for the SA but in the end was cancelled. Then left boonlay without any energy. DEAD. I'm going off to puke. BYE! =(

Hundred years passed since I last blogged..=X And my tagboard is flooded for the first time since so long!!! Alright, went for an appointment today and I got 10 Fresh Airs pending!!! Great, coz if its closed, I'll be halfway to MM. =D Accompained Lthena to tiong bahru to deliver her 2 pillow pads and went for dinner den saw this very amazing chocolate stall at one side. First though, jason. =X ahha so went to buy coz its so delicious and tempting. Den called him to meet him up and passed it to him. Somehow went movies with them lah and in the end they somehow made him send me home. Like quite weird. Haha anyway now I'm home, tired and everything and feeling excited about school tml!! Missed my lollipops!! Havent been in contact for the whole holiday with any of them except yink. =( Too much time on work, not enough time on friends..I'm sorry darlings, love u girls. And, HAPPY BIRTHDAY YENCHUAN AND BIG VINCENT!!! so sorry cant go to your chalet. Got this dumb curfew just the day before your chalet. Haha was quite sway =( Gtg slp, nights everyone. =) LOVES!

I'm sad..=( cried so much today till my eye hurts. Sat under his block for like 3 hours. The uncle at the mama shop even offered me lunch, but i didnt accept. Didnt want the uncle to see me cry so I left, lying to him that my friend is at the station waiting for me. Then went to block 421 and sat there to cool down first before taking a cab to woodlands to meet baowen and yansheng. Was crying all the way, even on the cab. Shit lah, my eyes is like swollen loh. =( He didnt even give a damn about me. Onli know how to scold me and scream at me after all the things I've done for him. *DAMN* Don't even appreciate me at all, didnt even dare to reply my msg. Maybe to him, someone else is still in his heart. I admit I'm jealous. He's done so much for her, but me? He only knows how to scold and scream at me for no reason. And when I tell him about my unhappiness, he screams at me again. So in the end its my fault again. Its my fault for everything. I've nv seen anyone like him. He was the one who taught me to face up to my problems and dont avoid, but now he's the one avoiding everything. I think I hate him, but I love him too. =(

Yeah, concentrate to achieve my car. By 2 years, I want to drive my car to meet him up. I want to show him that I can be successful.

There’s memories of you in my head
There’s loneliness in my heart
I wish my life wasn’t so hard
And that we weren’t so far apart

I miss that fire in your eyes
I miss the way you smile
You took away that empty feeling
and made every thing worthwhile

I love you so muchwith all my heart that it hurts
and more than anything in this world
I wish you'll love me
the way I love you....

way back into love

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me throught the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to youI'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

This song is great! I've been loving it since I watched Music and Lyrics with Cyn and been looking for it for a long time. And my darling lovely cyn sent it to me just when someone told me to listen to it. Such a coincidence ya! Its a really nice song..=D
But songs, movies, fairytales dont exist in real life. Its all dreams that human beings looks for. But what we actually is living in is the reality, which is most of the time cruel for some of us.

Anyway, been quite busy with some of my stuffs this few weeks. I find it superly enjoyble especially with chuansheng and ogus around. And of coz all the new friends I knew there. All were friendly and helpful. Plan to hit ME by 12 April to prove to my parents that I can do it!! =)) Who wants to help me??

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