I'm sad..=( cried so much today till my eye hurts. Sat under his block for like 3 hours. The uncle at the mama shop even offered me lunch, but i didnt accept. Didnt want the uncle to see me cry so I left, lying to him that my friend is at the station waiting for me. Then went to block 421 and sat there to cool down first before taking a cab to woodlands to meet baowen and yansheng. Was crying all the way, even on the cab. Shit lah, my eyes is like swollen loh. =( He didnt even give a damn about me. Onli know how to scold me and scream at me after all the things I've done for him. *DAMN* Don't even appreciate me at all, didnt even dare to reply my msg. Maybe to him, someone else is still in his heart. I admit I'm jealous. He's done so much for her, but me? He only knows how to scold and scream at me for no reason. And when I tell him about my unhappiness, he screams at me again. So in the end its my fault again. Its my fault for everything. I've nv seen anyone like him. He was the one who taught me to face up to my problems and dont avoid, but now he's the one avoiding everything. I think I hate him, but I love him too. =(

Yeah, concentrate to achieve my car. By 2 years, I want to drive my car to meet him up. I want to show him that I can be successful.

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