I felt like shit on Thursday and I'm still feeling like shit now.

Blogging at 4.30am in the morning when I have to wake up at 6.30am, which is 2 hours later. I just can't fall asleep, simply because I'm still thinking about my totally lousy results.

Anyway, what made me feel like shit is not the failing. Of cause I'd admit I felt better when I heard someone failed too, but it doesn't mean I was happy that we failed.

And I felt like shit because it was all meant as a joke.

Maybe it wasn't intentional, and maybe it was really a joke. It doesn't matter anymore. It just hurt me.

No matter how unintentional it was, somehow somewhere in a little corner of your heart, it still doesn't feel good.

And whats more, I was even concerned about him and asked if he wanted to join me for the appeal. OMG, I feel damn stupid lah!

Maybe next time I shouldn't take people's first word as the truth? Shouldn't be too concern towards people? Being too trusting also hurts so much.

Anyway I just feel like shit. Nobody will understand how I feel cause this kind of things never happened to you.

And I didn't mention to anyone, but this incident reminded me of Jason. So it hurt double, even triple times.

FOR-GET IT.

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